In the final chapters of the Book of Job, the Lord said He was God and didn’t owe Job an explanation. Once Job grasped the reality of that, he repented.
“Then Job answered the LORD, “I know that you can do everything and that your plans are unstoppable. “⌊You said,⌋ ‘Who is this that belittles my advice without having any knowledge ⌊about it⌋?’ Yes, I have stated things I didn’t understand, things too mysterious for me to know. “⌊You said,⌋ ‘Listen now, and I will speak. I will ask you, and you will teach me.’ I had heard about you with my own ears, but now I have seen you with my own eyes. That is why I take back what I said, and I sit in dust and ashes to show that I am sorry.””
Job 42:1-6 GW
Don’t try to figure out what God has not (yet) revealed to you, but trust His plan for your life as He leads you step by step.